Oblivion
Kinda annoyed this evening. Little thing. But yeah.
Day has been okay. House work done. Got to lounge in the garden and read,accompanied with the brother. Nice day.
Watched some Fringe. Mashed potato for the first time ever I believe. Truly a highlight paha.
Not had much in the way of communication from the fella today. Considering yesterday was good for us it’s alittle……I can’t think if the right word. Guess I wasn’t on the mind much today pahaha
Dog asleep next to me. Another on the floor. Fan on. Bloody hot.
Fatty blog up and running.
Night.
Rest Rest Rest She Says.
Another blog, mostly due to having time off. I can write more. Concentrate more on them for a few moments of my life paha.
The cold/flu I have is still clinging on to dear life, suffocating me slowly…..exaggeration I’m sure. But the feeling is there. Making me feel rather warm right now. Having to strip down to just a small vest top and underwear in the cold isn’t good but it makes me feel okay for a minute or too lol. It shall pass soon I’m sure. I always seem to get any cold going around.
Yesterday marked the 5th year of being with the fella. A happy sight/mark to get to. We didn’t do much like go out, but it was a saturday. So everywhere would be busy. We stayed in, watched a film (The Goon.) and ordered a chinese. It was nice. I missed that. Watching a film, cuddling, spending time together. No arguments. Nothing bad happening. And he stayed the night which made it better. I slept quite well considering my cold. Waking up in his arms, felt quite complete. We spoke about having our own places,I can’t remember how the subject came about. But he actually mentioned us getting a place. Which was nice. Considering he decided to have his own place before ‘us’ lol. But he would never be able to afford his own like he said and I already knew lol. You know it had been about a month since I last saw him? I understand how important Uni work is,so I didn’t mind him staying home to work on things. So he did. And then this end of the week he was in London for few days to hand them in and go to the end of uni party thing. The idea of him getting drunk all night was not appealing but hey. I try to keep my cool over things like that still. I do. I think I do just generally get a bit……miffed? I feel like it’s more likely he’ll go off with someone after drinking or something maybe? I’m not sure. I’d just rather he drank with me there. Lol then he’d see me drinking. I’m not the best drinker in the world. I have to admit I’ve drank on nights out lately simply to attempt him to feel the way I feel. Insecure/overprotective, etc etc. Eh. Anyway. It was good. I was actually quite nervous going to meet him on the racecourse, probably due to lack of seeing each other lately. But the days were good. Then as soon as he left, an hour later I’m moping around again. Huh.
That brought me to some conclusions about myself. Health wise. I’m tempted to ask my doctor,but then, I don’t want to look an idiot. And even then, I don’t think I am, what I think it could be pahah.
I’m being silly.
Today marked a year since Wolfie, one of our cats, passed away. Loosing his fight to cancer at the age of 2. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of him and his brother Seeley who will have been gone a year next month. Both of you were too young to be taken so cruelly away. I miss your little faces. The fact I was never alone.
I have decided to save for something. Something I’ve wanted for a while. It’s basically this like, ‘surgery’. Huh. I don’t want to explain it.
So it’s 11pm here now. Suppose I better start trying to sleep.
Ba.Da.Bing
Ba.Da.Boom.!
Paha.
Anyway. 3 weeks, give or take, without a blog being posted. Something strange has occured there aye?
Life is okay. The normal.
Working hard. Getting tired. Spending hard earned dough. Etc.
Getting a cold. Fun. However after tomorrows 7hr shift i shall be free of work for 5 days! <3 Much love!
Seeing the fella after 3 weeks or so of him working on his uni bits. Shall be 5yrs Saturday. Odd. Strange.
We’re working on things I suppose. I don’t know. It’s hard to tell how things are when we’ve not seen each other and not had time to speak much. we’ll get there?
1 year since my wolfie left on Sunday aswel. I don’t want that day to come. It’s not just the fact it’s his anniversary, but it means in a month’s time it will be Seeley’s 1 year aswel.
I can’t understand it still. It still doesnt register. They were more than just pets/cats.
Meh. We’ll get there!
The Script
She’s all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i’m drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don’t know how, how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can’t seem to find the time
I’ve got a new job now in the unemployment line
And we don’t know how, how we got into this mess is it gods test
Someone help us cause we’re doing our best
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we’re gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Shit talking up all night
Saying things we haven’t for a while, a while yeah
We’re smiling but we’re close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we’re meeting
For the first time
She’s in line at the dole with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn’t lose my pride
But we both know how, how we’re gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt
Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we’re gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Shit talking up all night
doing things we haven’t for a while, a while yeah
We’re smiling but we’re close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we’re meeting
For the first time
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven’t for a while, a while, yeahhh
We’re smiling but we’re close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we’re meeting
For the first time
For the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
We just now got the feeling that we’re meeting
For the first time
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they’re making us crazy
Don’t give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they’re making us crazy
Don’t give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they’re making us crazy
Don’t give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they’re making us crazy
Don’t give up on me baby
